Insecurity Causes An Unrestful Soul

Jacques Etienne

I'm tried of ppl's judgment. Everyone believes they know how I should live my life. Handle your scandal, I'll handle mine #aggy

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This past week I felt like I had to constantly prove my Christianity to others and I constantly felt judgement from friends with good intentions. Looking inside, I realized I was insecure and mad that everyone was pointing out my insecurity. I haven't been praying much and I haven't attended church in awhile. Then when I turned to others for advice, I felt they viewed me as a heathen instead of a child of God (which probably wasn't the case at all).

I need to work on achieving that personal relationship, my relationship with God doesn't depend on others opinions. God will not forsake me. Its funny because I felt Him so much this summer, right when my parents disowned me and He opened so many doors. He could've abandoned me because I was same gender loving, but he didn't. He could of let me self-destruct while I was defining who I was without outside influence, but he gave me that space. I need to trust and find security in Him and no one else.

God loves me regardless of my orientation and I have nothing to prove. I just need to work on our relationship. I need to call him more (prayer) and go on some dates (church). Yes, a relationship with God is like every other relationship, got to put in work!

Thank you God for revealing to me how much I need you!