Long Beach Scowlface
Romanian “Ben”
Interior Designer
Big Booty Camacho
Import Export Irishman
Jeff “I like old men”
Buck Tooth Pinoy
Valley Stream Quickie
Coach Slurpie
Rockville Centre Vampire
Nasty Franklin Square Gomba
DL Lace Panties
Little Shitty Bottom
Chelsea Pisces
East Meadow Italian
Above the Golden Krust Boy
Seaford Smut
Central Islip Hot Mess
Matteo
Jun Wang
Dominican Hair Stylist
Yankee Boy
Hewlett Artsy
Manny
Karl the German
Sultry Antique Collector
So if you haven’t guessed already this is a list of men, I have had sexual intercourse with. First and foremost, I am not bragging, I wish I would have done things differently. Many of the guys on this list, weren’t important to me, broke my heart and promised me love in return for sex. Having so many partners was also very risky. I used protection most of the the time, but a condom can't protect you from all STDs. Realizing this I got tested every 4 months and Praise God, I haven't contracted HIV.
When I was complying this list my heart sank, I consistently sold myself short. None of the people on this list deserved me. All of these individuals have a piece of me, pieces that I can’t take back. I also didn't realize how quickly I had accumulated all these notches on my bed post. I didn't love myself enough to do different. I wanted attention and affection and traded sex for maybe 30 minutes of someone's attention.
Whore, Slut and Skank are the words we call people who have slept around. Trust me people who sleep around don’t need your judgement, they need your help. They need to know that they have worth and value. They must come to realize that sex is more than just an exchange of embraces, hickies and body fluids.
Those 26 names don’t define me, I made mistakes but I’m not a mistake. I’m so ready to make right decisions in the future.
3 comments:
Jacques, you are person made in the image and likeness of God. Please don't sell yourself short. You are worthy of the respect of others; you are not here to be taken advantage of and loved for the wrong reasons.
I'm glad you're safe and healthy.
Thank you for the comment love, I was afraid to write this but I need to and I'm not selling myself short any more trust and believe.
"When we know better, we do better."
Continue to be safe, continue to do better, and continue to understand your worth in all that you do... You are a beautiful man, with a beautiful spirit...not everyone is worthy of getting to know those entities within you... Remember that. Love you
--Sophia
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