Monday, September 5, 2011

The Poems Come


After midnight, while the kettle whistles
The poems come
Like a draft through an old window
They seep through gaps of space and time
In my mind
No rest for the weary, why can't I unwind

They come like shattered memories
Though battered, my senses still sense
The sweet fragrance of my mother's body on her favorite quilt
Gentle evening kisses in Randy's car- call it "puppy love" but I still ain't over that shit
His lips pressed against mine, my thoughts still give me goose-bumps
Love lost, love gained and love forgotten
But love don't forget me
Are you cold? Did you feel that air?
Someone shut the window
don't let the warmth escape, in exchange for the evil zephyr

You can feel it under covers
That chill tickling your big toe
Its funny how playful the devil is
That unrelenting feeling of "Why did I do that last night?"
Innocence - not stolen but freely given away
And now I'm freezing because I no longer have a blanket
Exposed and bare
Nowhere to find refuge

As I pour the steaming water over the dark spearmint tea bag
I pray that love will pour over me
Add warmth to what can sometimes be nothing but dried remnants of things past
Restoring the elements and perfuming the surrounding environment

Until that day, the poems come


Friday, September 2, 2011

Take Me Back To Happy


Standards, used to have them
Dreams, used to birth them
Excuses are all I create... so close to giving up

Frustrated with self, growing complacent
Why am I encased in flesh?

Take me back to happy
Let me experience joy again
How I want to savor the sweet fruit of bliss

The days when I took time to "zen" and pray
The days when I knew all the steps to the ritual

Take me back to happy
Sandcastles and macaroni
Take me back to self love
Affirmations and meditation

Feet please remember the steps
Mind don't forget the routine it's not to late