STUCK

I feel very stuck.  There are some changes, I would like to make but I'm stuck.  The devil is a liar but I am constantly seduced by his cunning words and I am constanly STUCK.

I want to do better.  I am not happy with where I am now...maybe I will accept where I am tomorrow.  I want my relationship with God to be so much better.  I want my heart to belong to him and not to sin and wickedness.

Jesus, liberate me.  I want to restore our friendship.

Black Kids & Kate Nash

I am really feeling this band called the "Black Kids."  I really like there sound.  I love the lead singer's (Reggie Youngblood) voice.   They are from Jacksonville, Florida.

I also like this English girl...first Adele and now Kate Nash.  That song "Foundations" is on rotation at work, so I know all the words.

Some wisdom from Mother

She is so beautiful...God rest her soul.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Thanksgiving, how delightful and indeed its was.  I realize though my family may not be like "The Brady Bunch" we are fine just the way we are.  When I was younger, I wanted to be "normal".  I have come to apprehend, that "normal" doesn't exist.  We make the norms.  

My mom and I watched Haitian movies, while we prepared our meal.  Then we went outside to rake...I know on Thanksgiving.  That is okay, though it may not be normal to you but that is my family.

What am I thankful for?

I am thankful that I have God in my life, he is my number one.  His mercy is inexhaustible.

For second and third chances.

For a supportive family and even though I take them for granted sometimes.  They are awesome.

For great friends...what would I do with their kind words?  They are my cheer leaders.

WOW! I have so much to be thankful for.

Thank you Lord for you countless blessings

RiRi's in Rehab

I love this girl.  She is on top of her game, busting out single after single and video after video. Here is her video for Rehab
Rihanna - Rehab ft justin timberlake official video

My Latest Guilty Pleasure

Why do I like mindless TV so much?

My current guilty pleasure is The Real Housewives of Atlanta.  The show is hilarious.  Nene and Lisa are my favorites.  Nene tells it how it is and Lisa is so beautiful.  Kim can't sing.  The first season is over...I hope the get another one.

And look who else likes the show...Anderson Cooper

Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining?

What the heck does that mean?  I heard it on the radio yesterday.  I know it has to deal with "things getting better" but where does it come from?  Do clouds really have silver linings.  

Let me "google" it...

Webster says

Etymology: from the "every cloud has a silver lining": a consoling or hopeful prospect

Wiki says

The orgin of the phrase is  trace to John Milton's Comus (1634) withe lines, "Was I deceiv'd, or did a sable cloud/ Turn forth her silver lining on the night?"

So I guess things will get better and they have.  I realize I didn't do so bad.  I accumulated a 3.3 GPA.  That is something to be proud of it could have been worse.  I held my weight and got a couple of A's in some classes.  I am not a dumb person.  

But at the end of the day, I believe the really question is if I really want to be a nurse.  Is that what I am being called to.  God where are you calling me?  What is my calling?  How can I use the gifts you have given me to benefit everyone? Tell your servant.  I want only to do your will...your will

Our Father who art in Heaven

Hallow be thy name 

Thy kingdom come 

Thy will be done...

Songs I can't get out my head...

Halo- Beyonce (sounds so good, its refreshing...its so classical in many ways)

Sweetest Love- Robin Thicke (he sings so effortlessly)

Heartless- Kanye West (its really a great track)

Cosmic Journey- Solange & Bilal (its sounds like nothing I have ever heard)

Sober- Pink (i can relate to it...thats all I can say)

Love Me Already- Black Kids (catchy and funky)

Dark & Lonely

Things feel like they keep getting worse...I am usually an optimist but things are not looking good, let's recap...

1. I got rejected by the nursing program.

2. I got a 74 on my mirco test.

3. I don't know where life is taking me.

4. I am not feeling my job right now.

5. My relationship with God is not on point right now...I feel so distant from him.

I guess I need God to take control...please take control Lord

That picture is so symbolic of my life right now...it feels so dark...Lord send some light