Finally Taken

Don't look my way...

Your glares are unnecessary

Committed & Cuffed, over here

Yes you heard right, I'm taken

Your desperation reminds me of myself

Back when I was thirsty

Chasing and on the prowl

I know that smell all to well

An odor so thick and suffocating

Let me breathe easy

I'm finally in that space

Comfortable.

Let me be

Comfortable with my constant friend.

Before this friendship was a nuisance.

Nothing would be more frustrating

Then forcibly being pushed into your embrace

Now your presence overwhelms me and your embrace put me at ease

Now I'm falling head over feet with you

I'm taken by you

My heart races, no one else compares

Alone we sit in my room with no one to bother us

No one gets you better than me

I don't want to quote Nicki, but it's like you see Right Thru Me

To sit and just vibe with you

Your aura mesmerizes me

I don't need anyone but you

You know my every move before I make it

Whisper sweet nothings in my ear

Lay your head on my pillow

Rest your hairy legs under my covers

To be still with you, loneliness

Uninterrupted

Your name is a lone one

Become one with me

Elated, happy to be with you and only you

Finally Taken

Coverboy

Cover boy, what are you concealing?

Cake on that foundation and concealer

What lies beyond that facade?

Ignore me, if you choose

They say Never judge a book by a cover

Stop it!

Lies, I should have taken you at face value

What was my rejection worth?

Were you paid in ego?

Spend your compensation wisely

Oh beloved cover boy, you possess no depth

Shasay away

You ain't on the September issue

Cover boy, you're so vain

I should have known you were out for blood by the color of your blazer

Were your mean girls conversing?

Those wolves looked thirsty

Ignore that if you choose

It's almost deep how you can be so shallow

I know you threw away my present

Ignore my presence

Hide behind those big brown eyes and your model frame

And I'll hide behind my fear to approach you

Cover boy I secretly want you, that's why I judge you

I just want to know those secrets

Your mystery makes me hate and love you

Until I see you again, the spolight remains on you

So dip honey dip

Duck walk across the floor

Hope you can handle the depth of these waters

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Restored

Maybe I'm a masochist

Shamelessly drawn to the flame

Yes I have an affinity to tight warm spaces

Maybe I'm nasty

When will I stop thinking with the head in-between my legs

Sticky sheets, bruised egos and damaged goods surround me

I'll take the strings attached next time

Pull on my heart strings

I'm not dead. Hear it beat

Hopelessly drawn to you

Rescue me for carnal desires

In your arms I want to rest

Come quickly, don't delay

There is much work to be done

Till the soil, nurture this earthen dwelling

Sow your seeds in what was once considered dead

No longer soiled

What was once public is now solely yours

Drunken Truths

Why did I came out tonight? I'll be happy if I never see another twink

Flashing lights, surrounded by deceptions.

How can I be happy when I can't even look in the mirror?

Yes I don't feel good about myself

So have your party while I sit in my corner

Let the walls engulf me, let them squeeze me lifeless

You won't give a damn

Cornered by thoughts of self hate

Tired of this skin

Nope I can't be your mandingo

Stood up again

Is it cause I'm fat?

Sorry I don't have a six pack

I guess I'll continue to eat myself,

maybe then I'll feel something

Then I'll touch myself til I go numb

Numb. Mute. Empty

Hope you appreciate my honesty

The Poems Come

After midnight, while the kettle whistles

The poems come

Like a draft through an old window

They seep through gaps of space and time

In my mind

No rest for the weary, why can't I unwind

They come like shattered memories

Though battered, my senses still sense

The sweet fragrance of my mother's body on her favorite quilt

Gentle evening kisses in Randy's car- call it "puppy love" but I still ain't over that shit

His lips pressed against mine, my thoughts still give me goose-bumps

Love lost, love gained and love forgotten

But love don't forget me

Are you cold? Did you feel that air?

Someone shut the window

don't let the warmth escape, in exchange for the evil zephyr

You can feel it under covers

That chill tickling your big toe

Its funny how playful the devil is

That unrelenting feeling of "Why did I do that last night?"

Innocence - not stolen but freely given away

And now I'm freezing because I no longer have a blanket

Exposed and bare

Nowhere to find refuge

As I pour the steaming water over the dark spearmint tea bag

I pray that love will pour over me

Add warmth to what can sometimes be nothing but dried remnants of things past

Restoring the elements and perfuming the surrounding environment

Until that day, the poems come

Take Me Back To Happy

Standards, used to have them

Dreams, used to birth them

Excuses are all I create... so close to giving up

Frustrated with self, growing complacent

Why am I encased in flesh?

Take me back to happy

Let me experience joy again

How I want to savor the sweet fruit of bliss

The days when I took time to "zen" and pray

The days when I knew all the steps to the ritual

Take me back to happy

Sandcastles and macaroni

Take me back to self love

Affirmations and meditation

Feet please remember the steps

Mind don't forget the routine it's not to late

Cues

He enters stage right

Tall and walking with purpose

A style so sophisticated and a speech so sultry

And to mention a presence so bold

There is a fire in his belly

and desire in his eyes

All of this is noticeable in his stride

He waits center

I enter stage left and walks toward center stage where he waits for me

The dialogue begins

He looks directly at me

He takes my presence in, as if he I were his last

Consumed!

I can't follow the script, I'm lost in the mystery that is his essence

He is consumed, I am engulfed

As we stare at each other we are mirror images of passion

Playful smiles are exchanged, our noses touch and our lips lock

How I wish they would lock forever

A touch unlike no other

Is this lust or something more?

No time for thought, lights camera ACTION! The world is watching